February 6, 2011

  • There is no barrier between me and the sea. I look out at the waves. They capsize on the white sand hundreds of feet below me. I am absorbed in the roar of the misty pool in front of me. It seems endless—a crystal space infinite and mysterious.

    You call me. Dive, my child, into the deep sea below. Drink in my goodness and my grace. Inhale my peace. Let it infiltrate your being. Lap up my wisdom. I will pour my insight upon you. I will fill your lungs with the water of my mercy.

    Feet sliding closer to the edge, I look down, terrified at the jump. It  appears more like a fall to me. I hear the ocean—foaming, roaring and colliding into the colossal rocks. They break with violent fury and resound like crackling thunder.

    Daughter, you call. Come, come to me. I will catch you. My arms are always outstretched. You can trust in my endless, unfailing love.

    But, I cannot see you, I call. My God, I cannot see your hands! My body is trembling. How can I jump without seeing your presence, Savior. Show me, like Moses, your glory. Let your beauty touch my face. Engulf me in your radiance.

    Beautiful one, I hear. Gaze up and look to the sun. Breathe in the dewy morning and sing out—cry out to nature. Cry out to me. Wake up the firmament with your voice. I will show you favor. I will reveal myself to you in time. Sweet child, do you feel me? I am holding onto you. I am clasping your hand. I am embracing your heart.

    I feel your touch, sweet Jesus. It flushes over me like waves. You are like the ocean. You are like the visible pool below me. You flood all my senses. You infiltrate my body. When I breathe in the air around me, I gain power unmatched.

    I will jump in faith. I will jump knowing that arms will be there to catch me. You will hold me. I will rest in the shadow of your wings. You will cover me and show me your wonders. You will reveal to me your glories. I will not rest until I see your face.

    You are more beautiful than an angel. You are more priceless than lost treasure. Kings search for your grandeur. Yet, you reveal it only to those who seek you with all their hearts. My heart is exploding with love. I love you, God.

     I will jump in faith, not fall in disbelief.